Back on track

So I haven't been updating lately like I should, I've decided to start blogging my weight loss more regularly. I think it helps me to stay motivated!!

The past couple of months I fell of the train and I'm trying to get back on track. It's been not that good since the beginning of December. I have not been as careful with my food intake. And recently I have been catching myself snacking a lot late at night. The next day I would do harder cardio to try and make up for what I ate. On Wednesday I finally told Jason that I haven't been doing good on my nutrition. Then I went to the gym did 1 hour and 20 minutes of cadio, I ran 5 miles and did 20 minutes of the stair climber. When I got done and got to my car I just lost it. I had no clue why I was crying, my emotions were running wild. I didn't want to be a failure to myself, friends and family, I worked so hard and have come so far. I also didn't want to disappoint Jason I have always fought so hard and was so motivated. I think I some of the reason I was crying was because I finally told Jason and it was like weight was lifted off my shoulders, a relief!! I was talking with Jason and he said woman eat of emotion and said maybe I was eating to fill a hole, So now I have to figure out what that is. He also says sometimes people hit a wall, we just have to get back up and fight harder. He said to look how far I have came. The thing is though when I look in the mirror I don't see myself as any different, maybe in my face but when I look at my body I see it the same. He was telling me it's like people that are anorexic they look in the mirror and they see a fat person. I told him I don't want to be like that. He asked me what the problem is then? He said I have came so far and I should be happy and realize my accomplishments. It really made me think, I have to learn to be happy with how far I have came. And to quit stressing over the wall that I have hit, I'm a fighter and I'm going to keep fighting!!

We did measurements yesterday and I gained 1.5 percent body fat, that was really hard for me to see! It shows me how fast I could gain it all back. So now I'm back to being focused and motivated!! He had me put the scale away I can not step on it for 3 weeks, he's trying to eliminate the stress. So here we go!!! The more I lose the harder it gets, and the harder I'm going to fight!!!

100 lbs!!!!!

100 pounds I have been so waiting for this post!!! I would never have thought I could lose 100 lbs on my own without any surgeries! I owe a lot to my trainer Jason, he has helped me so much in this HUGE accomplishment. I Know I say it a lot, but I have never been the person to stick to any weight loss program. I am so grateful to have him here pushing me through this life long struggle I have had, and now overcoming!!!

March It's only getting harder

Well I've hit a plateau I've been yo yoing between 2 to 3 pounds this month, but I'm not giving up!!
This month I only lost 2lbs

March 6 -1.5
March13 +3.3
March 20 -1
March 27 -2.8

Total weight loss 98.3 lbs

More pictures!!

I'm going to be posting a lot of pictures....They are what give me motivation and help me realize how far I have came. I see myself in the mirror everyday so I don't see the dramatic changes that the pictures show. This is what keeps me going!!!

Nascar 08 and 09

February

This month I lost 3.5lbs

Feb 6 -3.5lbs
Feb 13 -1.1lbs
Feb 20 0
Feb 27 +1

Major Updating!!

Ok so it's been awhile since I have updated. I have been having a harder time losing the weight. I'm only losing about 1 to 2lbs a week, which is still good but it's just hard for me because I was use to such big numbers. My average weight loss in a month was 12lbs now it's 5lbs, I remember when I would lose that in a week.

Here's a quick run down of the last 6 weeks

Dec. 26 +2lbs aaahhhh
Jan. 2 -2lbs
Jan. 9 -1lb
Jan. 16 -1lb
Jan. 23 -1lb
Jan. 30 0

For the month of December -5.4 lbs
For the month of January -5lbs

Totals
71lbs with trainer
89lbs since heaviest

Pictures!!!!

I have lost 89lbs since this picture was taken in March of 08

41 more pounds since Angie's Wedding on 9/6/08

Friday!!!

This week I lost 2.8lbs. I have about 7lbs to lose to reach my end of year goal. I have 12 more days to lose it and I am determined!! It seems it is getting a little harder to lose weight. when I first started I was losing anywhere from 4 to 6lbs a week.

I am happy for what I have lost. It has not been easy, but now this is part of my lifestyle. I don't look at going to the gym as exercise, I look at it as part of my daily routine. My trainer, Jason, has helped me so much. If he would have told me when I first started that By the end of the year I would be in a size 16 pants and under 200 lbs I would have never believed him. If it wasn't for him I wouldn't be where I am now. I know I would have called it quits along time ago, just like every other time.
I have tried every kind of diet possible. Including phen phen, which did work but I gained it back plus a whole lot more. I had a gym membership for 5 years and used it maybe used it 20 times. When I got a trainer I wasn't for sure it was for me. I had a hard time at first, mainly because how over weight I was. I have always been the type of person that worries what everyone else is thinking. When I was at the gym I was always worried what everyone was thinking of me and what I looked like. I believe the gym has helped me with this in and outside of the gym. I don't care what people think of me, I am who I am! I am there to lose weight and I am proud of myself.
About 3 years ago my mom and I went and sat through a class regarding gastric bypass surgery, I was really thinking about having the surgery. I'll I have to say is that I am so happy that I didn't. It would have been just another quick fix. I'm not just losing weight I'm learning how to better my health for the rest of my life!

Last two week's weigh in

Well I have been a little bit of a slacker on posting my weigh in's. So I'm going to post the last two weeks.

Friday 5th: I lost 2lbs.

Friday 12th: I lost 3.4 lbs

So far this month I have lost a little over 5lbs. I have to lose 9lbs more in 19 days to reach my goal. I have been working my butt off at the gym. This week I went to the gym on Saturday also, so I went six days. I have never been much of a sweater until now, by the time I leave the gym I'm soaking wet. It takes me longer to get my heart rate up. After warming up and 30 minutes of weights I have been doing 45 minutes of cardio. I do 15 on the elliptical 15 on the stair climber and 15 on treadmill. I'm trying to get to where I can run all 15 minutes on the treadmill with out slowing down.

Totals:
65lbs with trainer
83lbs since heaviest

Stay focused!!

Ok. So last week I lost absolutely NOTHING and for the month I lost 6.6 lbs. That is the least I have lost in a month, besides when I first started and I would only go to the gym 2 times a week. I now go to the gym Monday - Friday. I am feeling a little discouraged right now. I knew it was going to get harder to lose weight, but I still have a ways to go. To reach my goal I have to lose 14 lbs by the end of the year. I'm just going to have to push myself harder this month (with help from my trainer). I just have to keep telling myself I can do it!!

Friday weigh in.....

This week I lost 3.6 lbs I am 15.4 lbs away from my next goal. I have not weighed what I weigh now for 11 years, since after I had Josh. I have went from a size 24 pants to an 18, which are starting to get big. I love not having to shop in the plus size anymore. My mom took me and bought me some new clothes in October, They are already to big. Until I reach my final goal I will be shopping the clearance rack.!!

Totals:
since heaviest:77.6lbs
with trainer: 59.6 lbs

Thanks

I just wanted to say thanks to everyone that has left a comment. You don't know how much your support means to me. Thanks and I love you all!!

Not BLACK!

In one of my previous post I mentioned that I only wear black. I was supposed to buy two shirts that weren't black when I lost 40 lbs. Well, that never happened until now. I now have six shirts that aren't black. It took me awhile but I am finally stepping out of my comfort zone! (74lbs. later).

Friday

Well, once again I lost 1.5 lbs. this week.

Bryson was the star student this week at school, so I was going through all my old pictures to find some for his poster. I wasn't in that many pictures, I would hide from the camera. The ones that I was in..... Oh my!!!

I'm posting these pictures for my motivation, and to remind myself that I am NEVER going back!

Friday weigh in

This week I lost 1.5lbs. It seems there is a pattern where at the first of the month I don't lose much. I know I'm going to start slowing down so I'm happy with any loss.

Friday already???

Where does the time go?? The weeks seem to fly by. Jason asked me to write a testimonial for him and print out my before and after pictures. I decided to try on the bridesmaid dress again, in a week it's been 2 months and I've lost 23 more pounds since then. The dress has got bigger on me, it is loose around the chest and waist. I took some pictures but I don't know if I'm going to post them or wait another month??



This week I lost 2 lbs. I got kind of scared the first of the month, the first 2 weeks I only lost 1.6 lbs. But I made up for and the end. I'm only 21lbs until I reach my next goal.



Totals:

71 lbs since heaviest
53 lbs with trainer
11 lbs this month

It's a good FRIDAY

Well I think I might be back on track?! This week I lost 4.6 lbs. I was afraid I wasn't going to make my 8 lb. weight lost goal for the month, I'm almost there and I still have one more week.

I've had a pair of pants that have been in My closet for about a year that didn't fit me, I couldn't even get them past my butt. Well I decided to try them on.......And they FIT.

Finally

These past couple of weeks have been really discouraging. I've been working my ass off at the gym and not getting any results to be proud of. I go to the gym Monday through Friday and I'm there for about an hour to an hour and 15 minutes. Well I was just about to curl in a ball and cry, I lost 3 lbs. this week!!! Jason said I was probably worrying about it too much, so he told me to stop counting my calories. I was losing weight before and not counting calories, so why try to fix something that's not broke? So I watched what I ate but I didn't stress over it. It's hard for me because the exercise is not my challenge, it's the nutrition that's my battle. I make sure I don't eat fattening food or junk food and I watch my portions. I just feel like I'm eating the same things all the time, because of my pickiness. I'm trying not to be I really am, it's just so hard for me.


Totals:
46.4 lbs with trainer
64.4 lbs since heaviest

weigh in

This week I lost 1.6 lbs. at first I was a little upset, but I'm okay with it now. It better than no loss or a gain. I just need to stay positive and focused!!

The Bet!/ Friday weigh in.

Brandy was needing some motivation, so she mad a bet with me. Whoever loses the most weight in October, the loser has to pay November's Gym membership.

Well, I hope this didn't jinks me!!! I didn't lose any weight this week. I have been really upset over this. I hope I'm not hitting a plateau.

Friday, Friday

This week I lost 4 lbs. I thought I was going to have a bad week. Last night I wasn't feeling to good, and I had an appointment at the gym with Jason so I made myself go. When I got there I sucked, I was so weak. We worked on legs, I had a hard time doing them..... So 4lbs is good.



Totals:
42lbs with trainer
60lbs since heaviest

Friday Weigh In

This week I lost 2.4lbs. I reached my first goal, fitting into the brides maid dress. So I've set another goal for myself. By Christmas I want to lose 37 lbs. That is 14 weeks away, I have to average 2.6 lbs a week.

Totals
38lbs with trainer
56lbs since heaviest

Pictures at the Fair

Every year we go to the fair and we get our pictures and the picture button stand. The first one is in September 2007, and the second was yesterday.

2007

2008

It's Friday!

It was my calorie intake that slowed my weight down last week. Because of Angie's wedding, this week I only went to the gym 3 times. I made sure I was eating more.
So I went to the gym less and ate more....... I lost 5.4lbs. :)

TOTALS:
35.6- with Trainer
53.6- since Heaviest

Before and After

After all the hard work, the dress for Angie's wedding fit!!! Angie took a picture of me when we were trying on the dresses in April. It was a size 26, the dress I'm in at the wedding is a 22. The Before picture is about a month before I got a trainer.

Friday weigh in

Well this week I only lost 1lb. I went to gym everyday, but I was only eating 700 to 900 calories. I was having a hard time eating, nothing sounded good to me. I'm trying to eat more but it's hard.

Grape fruit

I have been trying to eat fruit, It has been very hard. I can't find anything that I don't gag on. Last week I tried cantaloupe, I didn't like the taste. I tried green grapes, I think it was mostly the taste and the texture. Well this morning I tried grape fruit. It was OK. I only ate 1/2, and I could only chew it for a second and then have to swallow it (again the texture issue). I just have to keep eating them and I know I will learn to like fruit.

Lately I've been feeling my husband don't give me enough support about my weight loss. I know he's a person that has a hard time showing and expressing his feelings. But it would mean a lot to me if he could tell me that I'm doing good, or looking good. Maybe I'm being dumb about it, but I like to hear when I'm doing good. It gives me more motivation.

All the hard work paid off!

I worked really hard this week. I went to the gym every day, on Sunday it is closed so Brandy and I went to her clubhouse gym. I can officially say that I'm addicted to the gym!!! I'm glad that I got a trainer, because I know I would have gave up along time ago. He helps to keep me motivated.

We went out to eat on Saturday at Texas Roadhouse. I usually get the Country Fried Chicken, but I knew if I got it afterwards I would feel really guilty. So I got the rotisserie chicken. I'm also doing better at eating slower so I know when I am full so I don't over eat.



So on with the weight loss................... I lost 6.2lbs this week:)


My totals 13.7lbs this month
29.4lbs with trainer
47.4lbs since heaviest

My Knee at the gym

I had an appointment today at the gym. We did back and bi. Jason asked if I felt I could do any abs. I told him maybe leg raises and sit ups on the ball. He had me do leg raises with a ball held between my legs and sit ups on the ball. After we were done I wanted to do some cardio, I knew I couldn't do bicycle I would bend my knee to much. So I walked/ jogged on the treadmill. I felt just fine I think the doctor was just trying to scare me.

The camping after math

So Like I said we went camping for five days. On Monday morning I woke up at 7:30am, I woke Brandy and April up. We went walking/jogging down to the lake, which is about 2 miles. We came back and did a some weight's. We felt really good Brandy had me try some fruit, because I'm so picky. I tried a plum, was able to swallow it down but really didn't like it. Then I tried a banana, I gagged on it and had to spit it out. I'm going to try freezing fruit it might give it a different texture?

In the afternoon we went down to the lake we took the kids out tubing, came back and took a little break. We were getting ready to take the kids skiing. I was climbing on the front of the boat to get in and I slipped and fell on my knee and landed on the gas cap. I sat there for a second thinking that kinda hurt. I turned over a looked, I had a hole in my knee. I covered it with a towel because I couldn't look at it. Richard and April came over and looked, and said " ya your going to need stitches." It went so deep there was fat tissue on the boat.

To make a long story short we had to drive about 45 miles into Roosevelt and get stitches. The doctor told me no soaking in water or no lower body exercise for 2 weeks.

Well there went my morning walking. I had to just watch what I ate.

We got home last night. When I woke up this morning I was scared to get on the scale. After all that, I still lost 1 lb.

Totals: 23.7 with trainer, 41.7 heaviest.

4lbs!!!

Last night at the gym I was talking to Jason, I am getting a little discouraged because I fell I am working really hard and I should be losing more weight. He told me I am going to hit a mental plateau before I hit a physical one.

This morning I got on the scale not expecting much. I lost 4lbs. I'm really happy about that.

I'm a little scared for next week we are going camping for 5 days, and camping food isn't the healthiest. I plan on getting up every morning and going walking. Jason said he hates hearing people are going on vacation. I told him I was scared, he told me not to think that I'm going to gain weight and to think positive. SO I'M THINKING POSITIVE!!!!

Friday

This week I lost 1 lb. A little disappointed but it's better than nothing.

But on the bright side: My sister is getting married and I bought my bridesmaid dress four sizes smaller. About a month ago I tried it on and I couldn't get it to zip up I had about 2 inches to go. The wedding is four weeks away and I was getting a little scared. Well last night I tried it on again and it zipped up!!! I couldn't breath, but it zipped up!! By the time of the wedding it should fit well.

Friday weigh in!!!!

It's Friday time for my weigh in...
I got on the scale today and I lost 2lbs. I was hoping for more, but I need to be happy with the 2lbs it's better than nothing. I could be doing better, I know it's my nutrition I am a very picky eater. My biggest problem is eating every 3 hours it is so hard! I always forget to eat I need to set an alarm, or do something. any suggestions?

My totals are: 17.7lbs since getting a trainer & 35.7lbs from heaviest weight

What the heck!

Friday's are my weigh in days, this morning I got on the scale and I lost NOTHING! I'm supposed to lose 2lbs. a week. Last week I lost 4.5 lbs. I don't know if that's why I didn't lose any this week. I even fill I worked out more and harder, I don't Know!!!

Blue

I was getting ready to go watch the fireworks at Liberty Park. I was getting ready to put in one of my black shirts. I seen a blue one, not only blue but a light blue. I put it on and decided to wear it. My 5 year old son came in the room a stared at me. He said "what are you wearing?" I said what? He said your shirt, it's not black" I thought it was funny that my 5 year old noticed that I only wear black.

Only BLACK!!

If you can tell I only wear BLACK shirts, I have about 20 of them. I fell it doesn't show my fat rolls and it's slimming (it probably doesn't really matter???). The other day Brandy had mentioned that people that view my Family blog are going to think I never wash my clothes because I'm always in BLACK. So When I lose 40lbs. I'm going to step out of my comfort zone and buy two shirts that are not BLACK. (Two I know that's pushing it!!!)

My Weight

So after going through some of my pictures of me one to two years ago I decided to start blogging my weight loss progress.


I have always been on the heavier side, I was never skinny growing up. The smallest I have ever been was in 10th grade in 1995-96. I lost 30lbs on phen-phen, I got down to 135 and that was the smallest I ever was. Then that year I got pregnant and gained a LOT of weight. After each child I had I gained more and more, and never lost any of it.

Here is me in 10th grade.



This is April 10th 2007
About a year ago I was at my heaviest weight. I tried the alli diet and I lost 20lbs. That diet blocks 25% of your fat intake, but it also doesn't allow all the vitamins to be absorbed either. I became really tired while taking this, probably because I don't eat healthy as it is, I am a VERY picky eater. So I stopped and gained back 5lbs. After that I got a membership to the gym and I was determined I was going to go every day! That didn't happen I went maybe once a week.







7/10
2007








My mom started to go to see a nutritionist at md weight loss. She wanted me to go and do the program with her. But one: as I said I am a very picky eater, and all you eat there is protein, green veggies, and a fruit in the morning. And two: I didn't want to do one of those quick fix diets because I always gain it back and then some when I stop.

So I got myself a personal trainer. At first I didn't know about it, one of my first appointments I puked. I wasn't seeing the results I could have been seeing because I wasn't going 5 days a week. I started to go to the gym more and I started to see results, now go between 4 to 5 times a week.

I have now lost 15.7 lbs. since getting a trainer, and 33.7 lbs since my heaviest weight.

This is one of my most currant pictures.